Grown Men Don't Cry

After all these years, he found a way to hurt me again. I know why he said it. I knew of his circumstances but I just didn’t want to hear it. Not from him, especially from him.

I never been so disappointed in my life since the first time he hurt me. His words back then, cut me so deep that I vowed never to disappoint him. I made so many sacrifices back then and still am. He knows it too.

I hid my disappointment when he told me. I said little but enough to let him know I was clearly heart broken. I just left and busied myself. I waited till midnight and went out for my usual run. Only this time it was different.

My mind was lost in thought and my heart was drowned in sadness. I could neither feel the pain nor the tiredness. I ran dead of dreams and desires.

Home could wait. I need a space to cry. Cry my heart out. I went to the park which I climbed as a child. I sat there, wanting to cry. But the tears wouldn’t come.

Then I remembered the promise I made to myself. I knew what needed to be done.

I will NEVER surrender. I will NEVER give in. I will NEVER let it go.

So till my next post ya, its bye from Ganz.

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