Written Illogically

In which the author writes whatever comes to his head and doesn’t care about writing rules he learned in school.

Most of my friends who started blogging are no longer around. It’s either they have no time for blogs or do not have the enthusiasm they once had. I don’t blame them. It’s their personal choice.

But not me, I like to finish wanted I started. I keep my promises. That’s what I do. More often than not I pay a hefty price for them.

I used to think it is selfish to talk about myself. But not anymore, this is my life and I get to talk about myself not because I am arrogant or an egoistic self centered bastard but because I am the only person who knows me for who I really am.

I am a typical Aquarian. That means I do not like to impose anything. I don’t always say do this and that. There are times I can be like a dictator who is vetting his childhood anger on others. Contrary to belief I did have a good childhood so no motive.

I like to give people choices. Be their own commanders of their life. Most of the people I meet in my life are either too scared to make personal decisions or even worse let others decide for them.

Just because I write these things does not mean I am invulnerable. I too have been following the herd to some extent. But I never like to dwell on any one thing. I just don’t find it worthwhile to dedicate myself to any one thing. Life is full of mystery and I don’t feel obligated to excel in anything. I rather trod on a road no one has taken and let life carry me off to a far off place.

Maybe that’s why. Of all the sure fire professions I could have excelled in, I had to be the one who chose to do the under appreciated CG instead of being an accountant, lawyer, a programmer or loafer most Indians eventually become.

Sometimes I just sit and wonder if I made the right choice. I mean I have a dream. Some of you might think it’s absurd and I might not be worthy enough to attain it and at times I have felt that you could be right. I don’t even know which path I should walk to seek out my dream. I just keep telling myself to keep on walking just to give myself a chance.

And that’s all I need, a chance. I know this for sure, no one is going to give me that chance. I have got to take it myself.