Losing It

In which the author takes the first step towards the degradation of his sanity.

Along the way I think I might have lost something important. And the consequences are rather interesting. A nice way to put it perhaps but truth be told I’m losing it.

I’m suffering some sort of psychological problem.

One moment I am so depressed about the situation I am in that I spent hours upon hours asking myself the reason for my existence and the next I am living as if I haven’t had a care in the world. I don’t know why.

My mood swings like the wind. It’s pretty frightening at times. Almost as if I am losing it. My own perspectives in life seem to contradict each other. I just don’t know what I should know. Though I don’t look it. But believe me my thoughts and emotions are in tatters.

Oddly I feel more Ganz than Ganesan at times and more Ganesan than Ganz at other times. It’s like two huge forces constantly battling each other for supremacy. Maybe I am just imagining it or worse I am manifesting this whole situation.

Well it seems like there is no logic in my thoughts these days. I think I could have very well taken the first step towards the degradation of my sanity.