A Conversation

Of utter importance

Thursday night, I had a conversation with myself. Yes this might sound strange or even crazy to some but I did speak to myself. You have to blame it on the free time I had to myself. You see I was to stay overnight in the store because I needed to support the exercise should anything happen. But nothing did. I am not going to bore you with the details of the exercise nor is it even worth a damn to me.

But the conversation I had to myself was of utter importance. It proved to me without a shadow of doubt, I have truly gone bonkers.

It’s been a while since I took the time to converse with myself. I needed to talk. And I needed to listen. I had to answer my own questions. Questions that have been haunting me.

I asked myself over and over again, if I was worth a damn? I just couldn’t say.
I asked myself whether I was worthy of my dreams? I had no answer for it.
I asked myself why am I the person I am today? I don’t even know who I am anymore.
I asked myself why have I been asking myself questions after questions each and everyday of my life? I couldn’t say.
Then I asked myself why am I asking myself so many questions? Then it hit me.

I finally realized that had I not asked myself, I would have never learnt an important lesson. A lesson which took me so long to learn because I was not prepared for it. A lesson I will never forget so long I draw breath on god’s green earth.

So till my next post ya, its bye from Ganz.